"Shortly after I was called as a General Authority, I went to Elder Harold B. Lee for counsel. He listened very carefully to my problem and suggested that I see President David O. McKay. President McKay counseled me as to the direction I should go. I was very willing to be obedient but saw no way possible for me to do as he counseled me to do.This quote really "spoke" to me because I, like Elder Packer, "want to see the end from the beginning." I have reread this quote several times, written it in my journal, stuck it on my bulletin board, and shared it with others.
"I returned to Elder Lee and told him that I saw no way to move in the direction I was counseled to go. He said, 'The trouble with you is you want to see the end from the beginning.' I replied that I would like to see at least a step or two ahead. Then came the lesson of a lifetime: 'You must learn to walk to the edge of the light, and then a few steps into the darkness; then the light will appear and show the way before you'" ("The Edge of the Light," BYU Today, Mar. 1991, 22-23).
I found Elder Packer's talk, "The Edge of the Light" online as well as a video of it when Elder Packer spoke at a BYU Devotional. In reading his talk I also like the scripture that Elder Lee had quoted to Elder Packer:
"Dispute not because ye see not, for ye receive no witness until after the trial of your faith" (Ether 12:6).Having faith and trusting the Lord are not always easy to do, but as I've chosen to put my life in God's hands I have found true peace.
One of the things that has recently helped me to move forward in faith is to recommit myself to God each day. I do so in my prayers, in my thoughts, and in my words. Several times a day I say to myself things like, "In this moment I trust the Lord," or "I am submitting my will to God right now." I focus on "right now" and don't worry about the future. I know the Lord will take care of me, my family, and loved ones, even if I don't know how or when.
How have you "stepped into the darkness" and trusted the Lord? What faith promoting experiences have you had?